title: I love you the best that i could.
I Cared for you the best that i could. i stood by you till the end of time. i was worried sick for you. but all you can say is moved on. new life ahead in a few days time. i dun wanna tear you apart already. But is this fking fair!????? do i deserve this???? at least im deserve the truth and an explaination right!! WHY THINGS HAVE TO FKING TURN OUT SOOO UGLY!!!! |
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title: Fucked up!!! Its almost 2 years of being in a relationship and its all gone like that.
everything just suddenly change,change for the worst. He's being lying behind my back all these while and when i found out its sooo hard to even believe whatever he have done. it hurts me badly! i loved him the best i could! even up to now i still stood by him! supporting him putting effort hoping he will change. Not adding stress to him,not expecting,encouraging, being the BEST i could, i really trieddd. it was my fault in the begining it really was, But that doesnt even give him the reason to OVER do all these. you said you will change,you regret but do you really meant what you said? you know what hurts the most? seeing someone you know for almost 4 years just change in a glance. can i still believe that the guy i once knew isnt like tat its just a folly moment in life.CAN I? i really dunno, u said give u time to mia and think through but did you think through all these way? i realise my mistakes,i think through it but did you? can anybody knows the feeling of being alright but when ure all alone u feels like shit. when all of a sudden you will just feel hurt when tears kept rolling down your cheeks when u keep finding songs which fits your emotions everynight when you shut your eyes thoughts come haunting you everyday you just keep thinking why is everything like that you kept dwelling if its your fault,having the self blaming attitude. when u wanna just vent all out you dunno how to. and when u feels like shit, u cant even tell him. u cant even let him know. its confused,needs to think through, den have he even spare a thought for me? how i wish i hate him but i couldnt,i cant. i feel hurt because his changing sooo muchhh! he isnt the guy i once knew 4 years ago. i miss him i really do. i miss his smile. i miss him calling me sleepyhead whenever he wakes me up i miss sentosa trips with him i miss him clearing all my food on my plate i miss being treated like a princess I miss him being there for me tolerating my whinings I miss him carrying my bag for me i miss cuddles from him i miss when he truly loves me from the start i miss all those happy time he shared together. i really misses him alot. and now, i really dunno what his thinking. what he wants, did he really feel remorseful? did he really regret? or his just living a double life all these while? i realise my mistakes, i really did. then what about him? it fucking hurts seeing someone im once close to,once lovers to just change for the worst SUDDENLY! whats happening? i dont deserve all these. I really dont. i love him the best i could. care for him the best i could. Be there for him the best i could. why everything becomes like that? WHY??? Can i still believe that this is not the guy i knew? Can i? |
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title: Olevels had ended:))) FREEDOM IS HERE!!!!! rawr! but im kinda scared of my results:(( i screwed up my social studies and the rest i scared of careless mistakes argh!!! i hope moderation helps me:)) went out with paul to vivo twice this week:)) today head out with Jeremy,weipeng & Paul to mind's cafe then lepak at starbucks:)) glad that me and paul reationship improving:)) cant wait to head down to sentosa with paul:))) cant wait too suntan! cant wait to head out with lots of ppl:))) |
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title: hope i will do well for o levels Study Study and studyyy!!!! OMG! o levels are like 2 weeks from now:(( time passes so fast!!!! i still remembered the times in school i kept looking at the watch asking why time pass so slow now whenever i go school,at a glance, school had already ended. & now,i dislike friday:(( i love mondays cause its the beginning of a brand new week... had been studying like MAD recently! today head down to downtown,mccafe studied from 12.30pm to 4.45pm and did PURE maths!!!! tomorrow heading out to study again! hope i will truly do well for o levels!!! also 15 october 2010 marks my graduation day, after which i'll have a study break of 1 week... |
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title: today heading to my dad's niche
after which headed to jurong imm with my sisters,mum and brother in law. went there to check my m1 plan needa transfer name also,changed my number... after which went to buy stuff at night went to Daniel's farm to as it was grand opening bought lots of items... however,i didn't eat alot didn't have much appetite:( feel sickish and listless:S hate this kinda feeling.... |
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title: sooo long since i last bloggeddd!!!!
had been rather busy with families stuff,studies,school and etc... every friday had been occuppied to go mandai to see my dad's niche its been 38 days since he passed on, this week is the 6th week of the 7th days he passed on... and the 7th week on the 7th days which is next week it marks 49 days time fliess...misses daddy sooo muchhh:((( last friday paul surprised me bought me sunflower and hellium balloon! thanks alot dear althought i doubt u wont be reading my blog... after which heading to 85 with paul,jeremy, penelope,prima,joshua & weipeng:))) had a awesome time:) today was english oral exams! the teacher is soooo pretty and friendly! i hope i will do well for my english oral:))) |
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