title: Where are you? today cell was at the new church... went to tamp inter and saw so many zone 4 ppl so took bus 23 together... reached church had ice breaker first after which praise & worship today Junjie shared. did the d.i.s.c test to see what kinda person are u... after which rest awhile then prayer meeting... frm 5pm to 7pm. stayed in church till 8plus 9pm went to kfc eat after which,took 8 home reached home at 11.15pm. at times,i just wonder where is God? I'm just so drifted/far away from God... & i just feel tat I'm simply slowly getting use to it although i know that's not the right mindset but I'm just so tired of experiencing him, crying when leaders prayed for me & when I'm all alone,when I'm at home I'm just back to the same. i just feel so empty on the inside of me. & i know deep inside,I'm changing does anyone even know what this feels like? |
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title: wed had sport's day
the weather was a killer and sport's day is super boring!!! after tat went to long john eat with classmates went to toys r us and we were acting like small kids... at night at around 8pm went to LITTLE INDIA haha!!!! went with sis and other ppl:)) reached home at 11pm... Thursday went to temasak poly! the teacher brought us to It & engineering it sucks la super boring & it doesnt interest me... collecting of report book stupid teacher some kinda form teacher la i havent complete my sentence she said NO! then i attitude her and walk off feeling so pissed off! wat's the diff between collecting on thurs and on 2 june tues! making us do double work only!!!! after school went to watch night at the museum 2 i prefer night at the museum 1... today No school morning woke up went to parkway eat swensen's and there the services really very jialat prefer tampines... jus now went downstairs with one of my classmates then came home.. later gg bbq:D tmr church...... i hope my teacher doesnt call my mum:( |
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title: I'm feeling so tired,sticky,smelly & lazyyyy!!!
Today went school had LOTS of FUN!!! YOG Today:)) had captain ball,water soccer,bossa ball,human table soccer! played every single game and water soccer is simply awesomeee!!! got drench from head to toe & i fall down dunno how many times &i score 2 goals:D & its sooo superrr fun! wanted to play some more but cannot play already sighs!!! hopefully i will be able to play again next time:) after school went to eat at mac with classmates slack then came home... & I'm going to bath soon!!!! tmr sports day! Thursday last day of school & fri meet the parents session Arghhh! I'm scared my results sucks like seriously! and what if they knw abt my results & the quek every single time saying negative stuff to my parents sighsss! stress & I'm So SCAREd!!! |
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title: Saturday went church slightly late had breakfast with parents
then dad send both me & shae to mac 50 for church.. reached there had cell grp after which was the first service by pastor Daniel talking about the vision and church.. dinner was served:) after which me and Trudy both went high play with the kids and caleb was super duper cute!!!! haha!!! sunday woke up go downstairs with sis to buy breakfast... sis& sis bf drove me to church... pastor Jason ma preached about end times in the east Asia or smth... altar call didn't respond.. dunno why i didn't have the urge to respond... maybe not my calling??? after church had steamboat with Janice,Jason,Shae,tafe at bugis... had fun & my stomach really feels so satisfied... reached home at 10plus... today after sch went to search for job! fish&co recruiting dunno i should work, 6.50 per hour,4 hours per day( not every day work) & free meals BUT 6 months commitment. sighs! dunno! my studies so suckyy! mum encourage should i? is 4 hrs really very long???? someone help me man!!!! tmr having YOG:) hope it will be fun:)) |
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title: sooo superrr disappointedd in myself...
sighs stayed up late till 12plus am to 2 plus am studied like mad. wanting to get good grades but wat happen in the end? i failed every single subject sighss!!!! the only paper i felt happy was my maths paper 1 i gt 47/80 but overall still fail... sighs and my class results is like super lousy every subject out of 42 students only less then 15 passes... even for emaths my class strongest subject only 9 passes prbobaly wat the school did by pushing everyone up to through train last year was a super bad idea. & i feel tat im nt even suppose to be in a through train class meet the parents session bet the stupid quek goin to say all the rubbish... wtheck,some kinda teacher she is instead of encouraging us, she demoralizing us and give the dun care attitude when teaching us geo. then hw to u expect ur studies to get gd grades when ure making us lose interest in the subject??? how i wish my parents would be like the channel 8 9pm show. they get so angry till they throw ALOT of tuttions to me... but nah,that will never happen cos my parents dun really encourage me for having tuttion weird right? |
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title: Friday went to Clarissa's chalet...
stayed over at her chalet... had bbq,saboing session by taopoking her & drawing her face haha fun!!!! stayed in the chalet then at midnight, went to nebo walk around went to the fishing/prawning area slack till 3plus am.. reach back chalet everyone KO... ppl who stayed over guys:walton, paul & glene Girls:carissa,joleen,minghui,& another girl dunno hw to spell her name... next morning went to the coffee shop @ downtown then took cab with Walton & paul. alight at school buy food for sis then walk home... went home bath & went to church... after cell at church,went to the city church:) for prayer meetinG!!!! after which took cab down to pasir ris go for my sis Bbq ppl who when jessica,paul,jerome,jon,cons... after which walked home reached home at 4plus am slpt at 5am.... 2 sleepless nights!!! Sunday went to church early for Sunday school.. kinda fun when u see all the children.. so envy those young children can go Sunday school... after cell went to katong then L4D:)) after which headed to tamp for DDR:) yest after school came home change when to watch movie with paul,weipeng & amanda... then DDr:)) reached home at 7pm.. today went to school get back some results and my results was horrible to the max i promise. sighs!!if i continue on and i will surely retain!!! after school went to kfc then Emily's house with Paul played carom & monopoly till 7plus... movies recently watched... 1)17 again [[ my ratings 6.5/10]] 2)angels & demons [[ my ratings 6.0/10]] 3)UN-invited [[my ratings 4.5/10]] uninvited was totally waste of money not even worth watching its a thriller... i wanna watch drag me to hell:)) Pictures taken!!!! ![]() |
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title: Have been sleeping LATE for the last few days...
Monday slept at 1am was studying Tuesday slept at 1.30am studying... yest slept at 1230am was fbing,msn & talking on e phone! Yest went to eat pizza hut with church ppl after which headed to open plaza kenda sabo by Jerome & Shae sighs.... make me feel so gross out Mann!!!! today had my poa paper 1 1 hr paper complete by 45mins and fell asleep super TiREDD man!!!! after school went out eat then tuition from 1pm to 3pm... yay exams ending TMR!!! tmr will be the night tat i will go BBQ over again!! i hope it will be funnn! haha:)) tmr not coming home:) parents out of town..(Malaysia) PICTURES TAKEN!!!:) ![]() |
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title: OFFICALLY 16 haha:)
thanks for does who wish me.... by sms frm the first person:) Paul,jessica,jerome,kewei,annabel,merri, Clarissa,terese,tracy,taferine,Jason,aloyy, eunice,gabriella,amanda ng,lijuan,kelvin, big V & jonathan kum:) Msn(in random order):maric,peh han, jesvina,nigel...... Facebook: Clarissa,jessica,Lijuan,jaslynn, macric,john,derek,zhihao,aaron lee,jiaying, bryan,claudia,yiting,james yeap,liangkai,trishal, william issac,boaz,xiaojing,constance,xhiyin,joel chew, faiz,yiping,aliff,dilli,aaron ng & johnathan kum... thanks for my classmates wishing me & also playing prank on me and also going out with church frens to eaT:) thanks for e cake,cards,pizzahut,movie,cab fare,sweet...... really appreciate it:) |
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title: slept at 2am yest...
was talking on msn with Shae,Bk,jon,jess,paul! haha thanks bk & shae:) for listening to me:) woke up at 11.30am today by 2 smses.... cook instant noodle eat... going to stay at home to study today amazingly!!!! tuition changed to 2pm-4pm... tmr is A-maths & geo paper end school at 1pm... tmr & later going to kill lots of brain cells!!!!! I HATE GEO!!! Seriously!!!! hope tat later tuition will be fruitful & also when i study i will be able to absorb and get into the study feel... sighs so disappointed my grades are like dropping so muchhh.... I'm not anxious about studies & exams unlike last time... beginning of the year i was so into studies and reaching my desired score.. what's happen man???? sighsss!!!! I believe in BEing CLOSE FRENS:) |
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title: Friday maths paper 2 was a killer!!!
screwed up!!!! sighs! I'm going to fail lah!!!! after school met Paul,Jerome,Debbie then went to tamp mall meet jess went to eat LJS then frolick after which,headed to paul's house watch movie jon came too. watched fireproof an amazing,touching movie!!! after which went to kfc for dinner reached home at 10plus pm! Today went out with my parents to eat ate @ tamp safra sakura SHIOKNESS man! haha! 3 person $77! eat till super bloated after which went to tamp 1 meet merri then headed to church for prayer meeting! after prayer meeting they went to eat,took bus 10 to tamp haha DDR @ T1 was shiokness! played for SUPER LONG!!! HAHA!! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY PAUL:D |
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title: Yest night study till 12plus am!!!!
suppose to wake up at 6am to study but plan failed! step in the school and ms teo first question ms teo: candy nv sleep ar?eye bags so dark.... candy:huh?have.i studied till 12am yest... Ms teo:must sleep & rest for tmr math paper ar? candy:ok! wahhhh!!! today chem paper i think i will fail sighs!!! after i finish i lie on the table to pray till i doze off... after school came home sleep for awhile then tuition till 3plus pm... 4pm went downstairs to buy stuff and food didn't eat till 4pm!!!! & i Helped a old woman today again:) i feel so happy to help someone in need:) going to study more later!!!!!! Sadness!!!! maybe Saturday not going cell.... Going to eat buffet(maybe Japanese) with my parents to celebrate my birthday:( |
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title: KNOW SMTH???? yest i have 1 ulcers now i have 2 ulcers... Its multiplying...... BEWARE OF ME!!!:) Today didn't meet for breakfast! as it was raining and i was just to lazy to get out of my bed... Social studies paper was average hopefully i will be able to pass... ended at 10.30am suppose to meet Jerome & Debbie but they went with their frens so nvm... went to eat sushi with Amanda ng & jaslynn after which headed to T1 bought chicken wings shiokness:) slack around then boaz,Paul & mac came... decided to walk home but ended up going central park the watermelon playground. Ernest came down slack around there then walk home... reach home at 6plus & i haven't study my chem... DIE lahHh!!! Dun have the urgency & also,it doesn't feels like a exam period... Going to study soon.... Im currently in the thinking mood..... can't read my , can't read my no He can't read my poker face |
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title: SCREWED UPPP!!!
Monday had English exam paper... kinda screwed up... compo chose the topic: what kind of pain & joy does a teenage face? & letter writing was to a principle regarding a study area or relax area tat kind... paper 2 was about the cloning of animals and stuff... today Chinese paper was totally SCREWED up! for paper 2 had stomachache and it affect my Chinese paper arghH! went to the toilet twice and stuff and i have no time to complete so just anyhow do! stupid lahhh! going to fail already sighsss!!!! stomach having the weird & horrible feeling like after u eat you got the cramp,stomachache feeling then like wan vomit & Dabian but cant! stupid lahh! tmr is wed breakfast again:) Any GIRL wanna go swimming/sun tanning on sat? before cell group?haha!!!! Happy 19th birthday jess :) & happy 16th birthday Taferine:D |
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title: I LOVE OF MY NEW BLOG SKINNNNN!!!!
SO COOLL!!!! Today went for cell. to be honest,didn't really felt like going struggled to go and stuff... is like a daily routine of my life... went there late... during praise & worship i was also not connected... during worship i just cried/tear... today cell was different we do some housekeeping ppl prayed for those who are struggling! i felt much better after lijuan prayed for me(: i really appreciate it SO MUCHHH!!! & also spoke to shae in the bus its been long since we last spoken abt our lifes & stuff we should really do some catching up soon!!!!! I really Thank God for placing wonderful fren in my life. like merri,jerome,shaelynna,paul & even lijuan... i felt so encourage like I'm not alone cos there's ppl out there facing the same issue & are always there to be my listening ear/& would also advice & guide me along.... I realise I'm not the one who respond to hard approach as it will make me rebel more but rather i would listen to soft approach as it makes me think more.... |
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title: TIME IS RUNNING OUT!!!! yest went for sports heat after which went to pasir ris eat with jerome,paul & shaelynna merri last min cant come out:( went to justasia eat my fav place:) spicy chicken is awesome mannn!!!! after which took 15 home. reached home at about 10plus 11pm... today woke up at 6.30am after awhile fell asleep till 7am... meet jerome & paul under my block walk to bedok reservior reached there walk for the 2.8km... felt like we had no life waking up early in the morning go bedok reservoir just to walk.... after everything ended,went with jerome & paul to kfc eat then went home... meeting jason & cons at 4pm at tamp 1 feels super duper tired & lack of time SERIOUSLY! just simply feels like staying at home & sleep... going to chiong homeworks tonight why is my schedule so pack up???ahhhH!!!! sooo stresseddd upp!!!! God give me strength!!!! |
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